"should i talk to her?" "why her face like that?" "why she look like someone who want to eat you up?" "why she didn't say anything?"
I am not someone who will talk to you for the first time we meet cause i am afraid.
"should i greet her/him?" "what should i say?" "what would they think about me?" "should i smile to them?" i don't know~
It's always like this even right now~~
Sometimes i get jealous with someone who can express and show her feeling, her emotion bravely~cause i don't know how to do it. my weakness, i am to boyish, i cannot express my feeling very well, i always think negative at first, i am too sensitive, i doing something before i know what is right or wrong, i always imagine, i always said something that 'poop' in my mind...so many bad thing~ i can't list all of it.
Unrequited love. I always have that and that make me an expert. I always try to avoid liking someone so that i will not experience to let it go. Let it go something that not even started. It's painful and hopeless. To make myself forget for someone, is not that easy. I have to find something that can make my mind away somewhere. but once i forger, it will become a memory.
Why i writing this? I don't even know. What should i do? ahhhhh...I knew it. Lets make it like i always did. FORGET AND LET IT GO...
