He knew,he not?

My brain full of him~ oh noooo~~ i can't do work like this. I need to focus~~

Why i update my status like that? huh????? urghhhhhhhhh..

They discuss what i wrote on my status~ and then they with the conclusion. Weiyo???

So all of this time, they knew it and i was foolish myself? urghhhhh.. Kantoi la ni! 

Now he know but i can't understand it~~ his reaction. Is he try to make sure whether i like him or not when he look at me? Cause when i really..that time..i smile whenever i saw him, he look at me and i bet he can see my fishy face (O.o) Urghhh! DAMN!

Then, yesterday~ when i though no one in the cabin~ he's there! with his friends and his friend just smile like kerang busuk~~ urghhhhhh! MALUNYER!!!!! i knew his friends knew it cause they discuss with each other~ so, i just act like normal. When i try to fixed something in front, his friends singing LOUDLY like a song that, when i heard it~~even its maybe not towards me but its like * templak kat muka sendiri~

I feel really really shame but i think they can't see my face cause i facing other side but you know what~~

Lama sangat dalam cabin tu, diorg nyanyi, gelak-gelak then my temperature rise~ i think i got fever that time. I don't feel any Dup Dap Dup Dap~~ My body just turn hot~

The things that make me curious, whether he knew it but just buat bodoh sebab dia bukannya suka saya. Just anggap kawan sekerja or he knew it and kinda like it.  sebab dia macam tak bersuara, dia tak cakap apa-apa pun.

OK! bayangkan .. macam my friend, ada orang kenakan dia dgn seorg budak lelaki ni.. budak lelaki ni tak suka tapi dia tak cakap. dia cuma jauhkan diri dgn kawan saya sebab tak nak org gosip pasal dia dgn kawan saya. tetapi kawan saya pun bukannya suka dia~~ COMPLICATED.

Saya pula~~ saya memang suka dia.. ada org dlm diri saya ni suka sebab si dia tahu dan ada lg satu org dlm diri saya ni cakap ,malu kalau si dia tahu. Tapi dia da tahu! Nak kata dia jauhkan diri dari saya, TAK! sebab saya jarang nmpk dia sebab dia lepak tempat lain, saya pula tempat lain. Nak kata dia buat muka benci, tak pernah pula or mungkin saya tak perasan~ Da la banyak scene-scene yang macam kitorg tertengok antara satu sama lain.

URGHHHHhhhhh! benda ni semua buat saya nervous la! cause i want to know how he's feeling~~

Ottoke?? cmne nak kerja ni~ da la kerja kat cabin juga! 

Aqilah! keep ur mind straight! focus! be professional! Hwaithing!

Bye Bye cutie!

Every time we manage to finished it, i really-really happy! At last, this aircraft can fly~ weeeee
I get excited, jumping and waving like crazy to the pilot~~hihi But actually i can't see them at all cause they look too small at the window :D
I don't know, how long i will be like this...excited to see those airplane... Hope it will be long last~~

Since i was age 4 years, i already being exposed to this..while everyone don't know about it,~ i proudly said ~~ " Saya dah naik kapal terbang :D " then everyone like ~~ " wah~~ nak naik juga~~ :( "
As i grown up, i forget about that. Forget about how much i love aeroplane ~ Conflicts with my mom then with myself and now ~~ i am here. :)

I really happy~ I probably wanna cry right now :(

Work in this workplace is not that easy like i imagined. It needs effort, courage, interest. Thank to Allah S.W.T, Allah give me guide. Allah help me when i feel down by give me my friends who always cheering with me. Allah give me my family when i feel lonely at night by make them call me~~ Allah give me the tech and lae when i don't know how to do thing. Allah give me something inside myself who keep pushing me back to my goal. Allah give me healthy when i feel like i gonna to die young~~
Allah S.W.T always be there for me~

I will keep, and still be here....
hwaithing AQILAH! XDXDXD