sorry

I feel so sad. yesterday, i go to the clinic because my wrist and my back is pain. so, the doctor suggest me to do X-ray. while i waiting in the xray room, it feels like in the movie. So many negative thinking came into my mind... i don't know... While i waiting for the doctor, i pray so that it will not be too serious... then when the nurse calling, my heart beat going faster.. the doctor said " Aqilah, It's not so good... 3 of your bond are too close... you have to see the specialist.. i will give you a recomended later and you have to go there ASAP" that what she said to me..i feel so weird~~~ Then at home..my mom are so worried with my condition..but my dad keep saying that its my fault. i always trouble them, that's make him angry with me.. i feel bad. why i have to have this! i feel so fusfrated ! why ??? my mom scold my father, they argueing with each other.. i feel bad... Sorry.. I don't really know my condition.. i will go to KPJ tomorrow to meet a few foctor. we wskt and see how... it's all my faults. i always ask for it but now, i didn't want it! i feels so wrong..when i ask for it, i never think about the feeling... i just keep asking but now.... I know how it feels..SORRY..