He knew,he not?

My brain full of him~ oh noooo~~ i can't do work like this. I need to focus~~

Why i update my status like that? huh????? urghhhhhhhhh..

They discuss what i wrote on my status~ and then they with the conclusion. Weiyo???

So all of this time, they knew it and i was foolish myself? urghhhhh.. Kantoi la ni! 

Now he know but i can't understand it~~ his reaction. Is he try to make sure whether i like him or not when he look at me? Cause when i really..that time..i smile whenever i saw him, he look at me and i bet he can see my fishy face (O.o) Urghhh! DAMN!

Then, yesterday~ when i though no one in the cabin~ he's there! with his friends and his friend just smile like kerang busuk~~ urghhhhhh! MALUNYER!!!!! i knew his friends knew it cause they discuss with each other~ so, i just act like normal. When i try to fixed something in front, his friends singing LOUDLY like a song that, when i heard it~~even its maybe not towards me but its like * templak kat muka sendiri~

I feel really really shame but i think they can't see my face cause i facing other side but you know what~~

Lama sangat dalam cabin tu, diorg nyanyi, gelak-gelak then my temperature rise~ i think i got fever that time. I don't feel any Dup Dap Dup Dap~~ My body just turn hot~

The things that make me curious, whether he knew it but just buat bodoh sebab dia bukannya suka saya. Just anggap kawan sekerja or he knew it and kinda like it.  sebab dia macam tak bersuara, dia tak cakap apa-apa pun.

OK! bayangkan .. macam my friend, ada orang kenakan dia dgn seorg budak lelaki ni.. budak lelaki ni tak suka tapi dia tak cakap. dia cuma jauhkan diri dgn kawan saya sebab tak nak org gosip pasal dia dgn kawan saya. tetapi kawan saya pun bukannya suka dia~~ COMPLICATED.

Saya pula~~ saya memang suka dia.. ada org dlm diri saya ni suka sebab si dia tahu dan ada lg satu org dlm diri saya ni cakap ,malu kalau si dia tahu. Tapi dia da tahu! Nak kata dia jauhkan diri dari saya, TAK! sebab saya jarang nmpk dia sebab dia lepak tempat lain, saya pula tempat lain. Nak kata dia buat muka benci, tak pernah pula or mungkin saya tak perasan~ Da la banyak scene-scene yang macam kitorg tertengok antara satu sama lain.

URGHHHHhhhhh! benda ni semua buat saya nervous la! cause i want to know how he's feeling~~

Ottoke?? cmne nak kerja ni~ da la kerja kat cabin juga! 

Aqilah! keep ur mind straight! focus! be professional! Hwaithing!

Bye Bye cutie!

Every time we manage to finished it, i really-really happy! At last, this aircraft can fly~ weeeee
I get excited, jumping and waving like crazy to the pilot~~hihi But actually i can't see them at all cause they look too small at the window :D
I don't know, how long i will be like this...excited to see those airplane... Hope it will be long last~~

Since i was age 4 years, i already being exposed to this..while everyone don't know about it,~ i proudly said ~~ " Saya dah naik kapal terbang :D " then everyone like ~~ " wah~~ nak naik juga~~ :( "
As i grown up, i forget about that. Forget about how much i love aeroplane ~ Conflicts with my mom then with myself and now ~~ i am here. :)

I really happy~ I probably wanna cry right now :(

Work in this workplace is not that easy like i imagined. It needs effort, courage, interest. Thank to Allah S.W.T, Allah give me guide. Allah help me when i feel down by give me my friends who always cheering with me. Allah give me my family when i feel lonely at night by make them call me~~ Allah give me the tech and lae when i don't know how to do thing. Allah give me something inside myself who keep pushing me back to my goal. Allah give me healthy when i feel like i gonna to die young~~
Allah S.W.T always be there for me~

I will keep, and still be here....
hwaithing AQILAH! XDXDXD

Someone asking me

yesterday, someone ask me ~~~ why i can't join Malaysia Airlines? i answered, it because someone jealous with my mom so she make something so that i can't join MAS. but i think it is not 100% true cause actually, i didn't like aviation. no, not because i didn't like aircraft, i just don't wanna be an engineer or technician because i don't want anything that related to "BOYS" work. i already look like boy so i don't like it. i want to be a chef but my mom don't want me to be a chef. she want me to be an engineer. i understand her concern. she being live with MAS almost 30 years~ so, she want me to continue working there because i only her hope. i didn't like it.

so, when i study at MIAT, i fail so many subject. i fail for 3 semester. i don't sad at all. i kind love it but i feel responsible. not responsible for my parents but for myself. i talk to myself...why u do this? why u hate it so much? i keep asking myself~~~ then i realize..i just don't like it because my mom ask me to do it. i just don't like it because my mom love it so much. not because i don't like it.. so after that, i study hard. i have to see my dean so that i can repeat the subject. it is because, student only allow to take max 16 credit hour but that time i have to take for 22 credit hour if i don't want to repeat my semester. Alhamdulillah~~ i manage to to get an excellent result and my lecturer just too shock! she said, "how come??" i know, i can do it if i want, u also can do it!

 i also cant believe it because that time, it so hard . i don't have my best friend beside me~ Thanks to my friends Amira for helping me, for teach me~~thank u! now, i am a Junior Technician. i will become Technician and i will become an Engineer~~ pray hard! and work hard too!

 i have to go back to work! XDXDXD
 lunch time already finish~
see u again~~ LOL

Alhamdulillah

YOU GIVE ME "SICK" SO I CAN REMEMBER YOU. YOU GIVE ME "HEALTH" SO I CAN THANK YOU. WORd THAT CAN DESCRIBE HOW WAS MY FEELING RIGHT NOW IS 'THANK YOU ALLAH'.

sorry

I feel so sad. yesterday, i go to the clinic because my wrist and my back is pain. so, the doctor suggest me to do X-ray. while i waiting in the xray room, it feels like in the movie. So many negative thinking came into my mind... i don't know... While i waiting for the doctor, i pray so that it will not be too serious... then when the nurse calling, my heart beat going faster.. the doctor said " Aqilah, It's not so good... 3 of your bond are too close... you have to see the specialist.. i will give you a recomended later and you have to go there ASAP" that what she said to me..i feel so weird~~~ Then at home..my mom are so worried with my condition..but my dad keep saying that its my fault. i always trouble them, that's make him angry with me.. i feel bad. why i have to have this! i feel so fusfrated ! why ??? my mom scold my father, they argueing with each other.. i feel bad... Sorry.. I don't really know my condition.. i will go to KPJ tomorrow to meet a few foctor. we wskt and see how... it's all my faults. i always ask for it but now, i didn't want it! i feels so wrong..when i ask for it, i never think about the feeling... i just keep asking but now.... I know how it feels..SORRY..

Hi, Thank You for viewing this page! Kamsahamida! XDXDXD

I really excited about this program! Thanks again!

when i reading this tentative of this program, i getting more excited!

Day 1: SEOUL

We are going to gwangjang market. when i searcing about this place, i really want to get there~why? because i like to see different place in there. What i mean was, is it the same with the night market here in Malaysia? I really curious!

Then i saw this~

Really nice! What is this place? Samsung?
yeah! It's written there..hehehe, i just playful~ kekeke

Then, we are going to watch performance and also going to Cube Ent. I want to see them but i hope i can go to JtuneCamp~~~ hahaha XDXDXD

Day 2: YANGPYEONG

I can ride bike in Railway! WOW!! :)
i will get many experience there and i really can't wait for that!

Day 3: PAJU
I saw this beautiful place when i searching about Paju. I want to see that!!! Please!! Let me be there!!

Day 4: SEOUL
I am junior technician in aviation industry. So, day 4 will make me more excited cause i will experience the high  tech aviation technology in Korea! AWESOME! Can't wait any longer~~ :)

Thanks again for reading this~~ i just too excited about this~~ hehehe
I hope i can win, anybody can win~
If i am lucky :)
Thanks Ye~~ Peace

Things I want to see in Korea

I really love Korea!!! i never been to Korea before and I really want to go to all the places that 2 days 1 night going. I really love to see the scenery in that show. I want to see the S river shape in korea. I couldn't find the name of this river but what i remember was the scenery from the top of the mountain. We can see the river because the floor is transparent! How amazing! I can't imagine that!

Then, i would like to go to jeongdongjin beach! the train station is the nearest station with the ocean and it was a world's record! I want to see the sunset, i want to feel the cool air, i want to enjoy the scenery like lee Su Geun did. It feels fresh and satisfied. Credit to whoever take this picture ;)

The amazing place that i really want to see was Uleung Island Seaside Road! This place was amazing. I am not sure whether is it true or not because i never been to this place but what for sure was i still want to go to this place! Credit to whoever take this picture ;)

Other place that i want to see in korea was their amazing and popular city! Incheon, Daejeon, Gwangju, Daegu, Ulsan and Busan. I want to go to all this places!!! when i watch the show, i really want to see how this city was with my own eyes. Then i want to say " This place was amazing! The picture in above was Busan City! Credit to whoever take this picture ;) "

and i will not forget the famous Jeju Island! So many drama are being shooting there so it will be loss if i did not visit there, right? Credit to whoever take this picture ;)

Most of my friend have been in Korea. They also suggest me to go to Itaewon. They said, there was the best place for shopping. They know i didn't like to shopping but still, they want me to go there. They said this place are different and i will like it. So, it will be my pleasure to come to visit this place :) Credit to whoever take this picture ;)

 So many places and things i want to see in Korea! i can't write it all here but SEOUL IS A MUST! To many things to do,see and hear in Seoul ~ Their culture, their kimchi, their teddy bear museum , the theater. i want to see Seoul tower, i want to see Seoul gate, i want to see Banpo Bridge at night, i want to see and walk in the river walk, i want to see all! That is River Walk~~ Credit to whoever take this picture ;)

but what will i confirm once i landing for the first time in korea was this place!Credit to my friend Putri for this picture ;)

JTUNECAMP! I want to see MBLAQ! I miss all the chances when i'm in Malaysia. I can't go to Indonesia, My schedule is clashing with them when they come to Thailand then they also cancel their concert in Singapore. It was frustrated but what can I do???? KOREA! I have to see them in Korea! Even though i was officially an International A+ but i didn't have the chance to meet them.

To Korean Air Southeast Asia, Korean tourism organisation,Korea Plaza KL, Buzz Korea thank you for giving this chances to me, to us to share with you what are we really want to do,see and hear in Korea. Thank you for invite us to join Asian On Air Program contest :) KOREA, HWAITHING! KOREAN AIR SOUTHEAST ASIA, HWAITHING!KOREAN TOURISM ORGANISATION, HWAITHING! BUZZ KOREA, HWAITHING! AND AJA-AJA HWAITHING KOREA PLAZA KL! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

but don't forget to read my next blog to show how excited i am for this contest~ Kamsahamida~~

KATA-KATA

1. DREAMS ARE NOT CREATED BY TALENTED PEOPLE BUT THEY ARE FOR THE PEOPLE WHO MAKE THE DREAM - Drean High 2
2. SESEORANG YANG TERBAIK ADALAH SESEORANG YANG TELAH BERUSAH UNTUK MENJADI YANG TERBAIK DAN MASIH BERUSAHA UNTUK MENJADI YANG TERBAIK - Nur Aqilah
3. KADANG-KADANG IMPIAN KITA INI MEMANG MENYUSAHKAN TETAPI JIKA KITA SENTIASA BERUSAHA, PASTI ADA CAHAYA YANG AKAN MENUNJUKKAN JALAN UNTUK KITA MENCAPAI IMPIAN ITU - KOMIK 
4. ORANG KATA CINTA ITU BUTA TETAPI SEBENARNYA MANUSIA YANG BUTA KERANA CINTA. 
5. KALAU SAYANG SESEORANG TU, JANGAN SAYANG 100% SEBAB SUATU HARI NANTI MEREKA AKAN MENINGGALKAN KITA JUGA.

Olla!

hai ..da lama saya x post something new.. i have no time..no! maybe because i dont have a time for myself or dont wanna have a time for myself. Tepat 01/06/12 i become junior tech. Akhirnya... selepas hampir setahun menunggu..before this saya pernah kerja di Spirit Aerosystem, lebih kurang 4 bulan. tempat yang sangat teratur. ramai yang tanya saya, kenapa berhenti??? Bukan sebab saya tak suka kerja kat situ cuma saya rasa tempat tu bukan tempat saya...Everyday, i will doing the same thing..ahhh!! i can't do that!! Then i decide to doing practical and luckly, in the short time i manage to do my practical at Taiko/SR Aviation, subang. i have imagine so many thing before i enter Taiko but all the thing was only a dream. They make me feel this was the worst place! i love MAS more but not all the thing that happen there was worst. i have friend there who always laughing with me, cheering with me and when i come to AAE, i know something that they din't know. Not because they didnt know about it but they didn't practice it. so , i have something extra :) Saya seorang yang boros. yeah! i admit it. Selalu rasa duit tak cukup. Macam2 yang saya buat..tapi saya tak boleh bagitahu semua orang. i have a club, join as an Admin for MA+. i love it but i always dont have a time to do it. i feel pressure sometimes but i always getting excited when it always about MA+. I have doing so many thing and i will continue that. I will successful in no matter what i decide to do! Even though there was so many difficulties, i will always continue my journey because i believe only loser will stop their jouerny when they falling . We fall but we will not stop to try and continue our journey. Kesulitan yang kita alami, Kejatuhan yang kita alami adalah untuk mengajar kita untuk terus bangkit bukan untuk kita terus berputus asa. Kita akan berjaya dalam apa jua bidang yang kita ceburi, apa jua bidang yang kita pilih kerana kita telah berusa dan masih berusaha sehingga akhir langkah kita.

Dream

Yesterday, i had a dream . I dream I riding a motorbike with my lovely boyfriend or maybe my husband! I don't know... he seem so young ??? Maybe, he younger than me... I think so? I remember i try to ride that motorbike and he ask to me to be careful. Such a lovely guy... That moment i talking to myself ... " actually ... I know how to rides " hehehe . Saja nak manja XDXDXD I also remember .. I hug him tide. He rides so fast but i like it! I seem so happy ... I like that feeling. I hope i will have that moment..... Love it!

she a little bit tricky, but she is easy. she a little bit clumsy, but not to many. sometimes she the one you ignored, but sometimes she the important person in your life. sometimes you hate her, but sometimes she the person you love. sometimes you humiliate her,you hate her, you doesn't care about her but sometimes you desire her, you love her and you admire her she nothing but she meaningful. don't judge her but try to know her. you will like it, trust me...

tricky love

That is not the reason i like you, " because i want you". i like you because i just fall for you. i fall for you because i need you. i need you because i want to be the reason you were here in my heart. no matter what you think about me, i think i just want to love you. i know this was a one sided love..... but i think it just enough for me unless i find the new one to be love..

i love you in my silent

i so sleepy but i cant crying because i still hoping that you will comeback. whenever u smile, i still hoping that even a little smile is for me. whenever you are thinking i hope you will thinking a little bit of me. whenever you talk i hope you will talking about me. i so sleepy but i keep waiting. . . . waiting for your smile, waiting for your voice, waiting for your respond. i never expect for you to love me but i hope you will try to talk with me. i so shy to look at you and that was my weakness that i hate the most but sometimes i hope you can understand that. . . . understand that i love you in my silent. . . .

kisah cinta

mungkin aku terlalu jujur dengan hatiku hinggakan kau dapat mengetahui isi hatiku aku cuba untuk menyembunyikannya tetapi kisah hati ini terserlah di wajahku aku malu dan wajahku berubah warna... adakah kau sedar semua itu? mungkin tidak dan mungkin ya... tapi mungkin kau hanya buat tidak tahu sahaja. malang sungguh kisah cintaku sering hanya sebelah sahaja tiada sapaan atau teguran dan akhirnya hanya berakhir begitu sahaja..

The Sky

have u seen a beautiful sky at night? do u kno that the most beautiful sky is at night? ;) have u thank's to Allah swt for all this? i believe we forgot to thanks to Allah swt, right? same goes to me. i just realize it now..when i walk alone in this street without be accompany by others.. that was the time i seem to appreciate this creation.without knowing how beautiful th ey are make me feel so sad.....

Sad

when im not feeling good about myself.. i will cry. when i feel bad about myself.. i will cry. when i feel like im like an asshole..i will cry. i hate it but i will cry. i dont know the reason but i will cry. maybe because i keep it too long here in my heart. i always smiling outside but i crying inside. im such a loser... why i cant be good? why i cant be good?

something stupid :)

I ask him to become my bf. Sound stupid but at least I told him and i am not regret at all. I think he doesn't want to answer it but I understand it. So don't feel uncomfortable with me OK. I just want you to know that. So..... :)